Pedal the Cause

I'm riding: 100 miles

Team: Forward

ID: 1190

Lifetime total: $29,737.70

I am riding In Memory of Scott.


Pedal the Cause is one of the best events and causes around. The research that has been funded by PTC over the past 10 years is remarkable. But frankly, I wish we didn't need a PTC. I wish we didn't need any more cancer research. Simply put, I wish cancer was a non-issue.

As most of you know, I lost the love of my life 3 years ago. It was 3 years ago on March 31st, after 4 months of fighting cancer, Scott told me his doctor informed him he had only a few weeks left to live. And in that conversation, he was not bitter, he was not angry; he was deeply sad, but said he had no regrets in life and that he lived the life he wanted to live- "just not long enough." My memory of the next few weeks is crystal clear. I remember every conversation, laugh, cry, and all we did to try and help him be as comfortable and as stress-free as possible.

The year after he died was the longest year of my life. I can't actually remember very much of that year and wonder how I got by. I know my friends and family were incredibly helpful but I do not have very many memories of that year. This next year was better. I was able to come out of the black hole I felt I was in. I vowed to live like him. He was an incredibly positive person, with patience and gratitude. He truly lived for the day and enjoyed every moment he had, even before he was sick.

He shouldn't have died. I am so angry cancer took him away from all of us. He was diagnosed with late stage cancer in late November 2016 and died April 9th, 2017. Early detection may have saved him, and we need more research to find better detection methods. I do not want anyone to experience their loved ones going through cancer and I really don't want anyone to go through what he did. PTC can put a stop to it all. I will continue to do this ride and raise money for research until we can abolish this awful, awful disease.

3 years have gone by and I am now in a place where I can, and am, moving forward. Mike and I got engaged in the middle of last year's PTC ride. What a surprise that was!! We formed a new team for this year simply called Forward. We are not moving on from our past directions but moving forward together. We talk about both Barb and Scott because they are part of our current lives as they always will be.

I truly believe in what Siteman can do for anyone diagnosed with this terrible disease, no matter where they live. The advances they are making are inspiring but, obviously we have a long road to go. Pedal the Cause is here to shorten that road by funding ongoing and new research to beat all types of cancer.
Please help me in this journey to find a cure by donating to my ride. 100% of your donation will go directly to cancer research.

I plan to ride 100 miles again this year and I hope you will join me in this effort by donating to advance research and find a cure. Just as Scott never gave up, I am not giving up in the fight to make a world without cancer.

Thank you so much, Cindi